I’ll share a contradiction in myself:
It’s an odd time to be an anarchist and a medical provider.
The medical establishment is currently clamping down on people’s rights/freedoms and are implementing protocols based on what’s best for the masses with little consideration for individual choice/experience. It’s always been there, but its become more blatant and tight-fisted than ever.
For example having to face a life-changing medical crisis completely alone with no support or loved ones, because that’s protocol. (Like NY hospitals not allowing a birthing person to have a support there, not even the child’s other parent. Or my grandmother having a heart attack and not being allowed to have her caregiver, who has medical power of attorney, there with her). With the only option being to refuse medical care and risk your health/life. I think its cruel and in-humane.
But, as a provider, I totally understand why it’s happening. With limited access to protective equipment, there’s none to spare for anyone who does not have a life-saving role. The providers are doing the best they have with the knowledge and equipment they have at the moment, and need to be better safe than sorry. I get that, completely. And I feel for hospital-based workers right now, its a sucky time to be there.
Another:
I’m, mostly, pro-quarantine/shut down theoretically. I understand virology and just how limited emergency / hospital systems really are enough to understand that its one of the few ways that this spread of the virus will be minimized enough to allow time to understand it and prepare and treat it.
However, I also know that you can’t expect enough people to want to or be able to voluntarily shut their lives down enough to really do this. Therefore state involvement is the only way for that approach to work in any meaningful way. And I’m super fucking against the state enforcing such things.
Also, I’m all "fuck life as usual". This system wasn’t working in the first place. We need a crisis to expose its flaws, we got a problem that we deserved.
But I also don’t want my old and asthmatic family members to die.
So... I admit, everyday choices and thoughts feel constantly contradictory for me during this time of unease.