"How far can you go as an anarchist, are you mentally ready to face the dire consequences? "
i ask myself these questions on most days....and the answers keep changing....but i think i can go further than i already have, and i think i can adapt mentally....and the consequences (of "the systems") already feel dire.
regarding alternatives, i already live alternatively to "society" (or at least to most people i know and observe and hear about) in a variety of ways. some of the ways i live differently feel quite substantial, others not so much. i do so because i like the way it makes me feel - freer, more creative, more honest, more in touch with the land and water and creatures around me - basically, more the way i desire to live. i don't seek alternatives necessarily because i think anything "in society" will ever change....if only my relationship to people and places and things changes, if the way i relate changes, that usually (certainly not always) feels like enough.
that doesn't mean my choices don't get limited by systemic and institutionalized forces, but the ways in which i deviate from "normal" feel very liberating. if i thought i had no alternatives, i'd feel more depressed than i sometimes do now when i reflect on the whole mess (the shrinking wildness, capitalism, wars, pollution, authority, ownership of children, failing health and relationships of those i know, etc, etc, etc.).
i also receive a certain amount of pleasure from mocking the institutions, corporations, government, commercials, school systems....and i doubt i'll ever give that up as long as they, and i, exist.
i like the question(s).
edited: clarity, additional stuff. and this...
regarding "believing" (from the quote you referenced)...i try daily to overcome the programming i've received over the years in an attempt to not believe. i'd rather imagine, experience, observe, create, destroy, attack, ponder, explore, experiment, laugh, cry, rage, love, feel, dream, get high, play, wonder....anything other than believe. it takes a lot of effort, but most of the time i enjoy it.