I often feel a sense of the retrospective when I read doctrine. When I'm drawn to and share an affinity with the writing of someone else, it's as if some of those strands and fibers which plait together as 'AF' already resonate with the tune being played by writer, at least to some degree. It holds my attention for as long as this reciprocal music lasts. Put another way, these fiber/strands, or 'parts,' have already opened toward and have affinity with (that is, recognize) what I'm reading prior to the relative sluggishness of my cognitive awareness of it.
One of the aspects of the pamphlet Desert which I really related to was the understanding that the process we loosely call 'anarchy' is disparate, variegated; perhaps quilt-like. This is directly tied to the inescapable character , the fate if you will, of embodiment, this flux which always conditions and situates each one and thus always ephemeral and perspectival. We find ourselves perhaps more acutely as 'wheres' more than 'whats.' Desert is perhaps more clear than many other doctrinaire type writings in discerning this facet of 'political life' in that the author recognizes the myriad ways in which people who desire anarchy will respond to their changing conditions in a myriad of ways. If the climates change so will our inclinations (that both words are related offers us a glimpse, once again, of the participation, reciprocity, which we call 'living'). That is, if we're not so alienated from ourselves, fragmented, by giving ourselves to the seductions of fear, the belief in scarcity, the stand alone notions of either 'I' or 'we.'
Doctrine may pull us when we feel a certain part of our lives tense up. We may very well hear its music, learn from it, when we have no clarity and the waters are muddied. It can be quite helpful to hone our ear to those who've gone before us, experienced circumstances which have some similarities to our current conditions and hear how they plied those waters to find out which patterns worked there, and those that didn't.
There is, however, no real need to identify with any of those patterns, and in fact we may find this as detrimental to our ongoing anarchic process. It can all too easily stymie the flowering of our own lives by attaching ourselves to conditions not completely our own and by overlaying the parameters of others upon our own lives by forgeting the perspectival basis for all doctrine...and even more importantly, all living.
In sum, 'doctrine' means 'teaching,' and when we take this reciprocal, participatory, active relation as an object to mirror or fit into, I feel we further alienate ourselves from our own living by way of an attempt to freeze conditions/solutions-not-our-own in creating an ideal of them, forming retrospective justifications, logical fortifications even, to defend that ideal as if 'it' could be more informed than we're capable of. This is ideology in a nutshell, and is perhaps one, if not the, greatest dangers to this living process we call 'anarchy' by sneaking in a disembodied tyrant over ourselves. Thus I cannot choose a 'school of thought' from which to base 'my day to day life.'