If so, perhaps you'd be willing to share aspects of your own story as well as any reasons why your perspective has shifted so dramatically. It may actually be more illustrative to do so! I, for one, was never an adherent to any leftist milieu. I've been critical of most leftist approaches for most of my life, and yet I've never been a nationalist nor much of lover of god. I've thought, said, and done things that I would find abhorrent today. And I'm grateful for the changes within my life toward a way far more conducive to joy.
Some background: this consideration came up on @news a while back in terms of the possibility of a 'post-right anarchism'; my own story; another comment thread here on @101.
(I will more than likely answer my own question as well. Also, constructive suggestions on rewording or enhancing this question are welcome. I realize it's a bit cumbersome:-))
"today, most people i know don't understand, or barely even accept, or ridicule, my p.o.v., left or right."
"human; yes, i think this important because, as i said to ba@, i've gotten the feeling many leftists have no desire to see people change course in a radically different way."
I would agree with you on that. I think some are dependent on folk that are flat out right-winged or reactionary, in a way. I don't really enjoy being around leftists/them unless my gf makes me hangout with her friends/them lol. They always come off as condescending a-holes to me.
I dabbled in nationalism of the ethnic/racial variety when I was younger. I did and said stuff that weren't cool and don't agree with it now, but I did them and I can't change the past. I will try to explain further tomorrow. It's my bed time.
"They always come off as condescending a-holes to me."
this was one of the turn-offs for me as well, and remains so, particularly if they're involved in the school system in any way. ;-)
there's often a certain smugness which seems to accompany a non-questioning attitude towards one's own beliefs.
af: " they really don't desire anyone on 'the right' to change precisely because their own identity is so wrapped up in the agonistic relationship with 'the right.'"
that is largely spot on, in my experience.
i also suspect that lack of desire (at least sometimes) comes from an assumption that those on "the other side" simply cannot - or do not want to - change.
i would also point out that in my experience, those on "the right" have a very similar perspective on the whole "changing those who are wrong" thing. they'd (both left and right) like to see folks change; they are sure that if only those other folks could understand the correctness of their own perspective, they'd see the light; then, finally, they give up and fall back on a "they'll never change, they are way too invested in their wrong perspective - fuck em".
i definitely acknowledge that those on the left can seem much more like prostylizers, and they often come off as more self-righteous, imo.
"i've gotten the feeling many leftists have no desire to see people change course in a radically different way"
i would agree with that to the extent that leftists are usually politicians, and politicians are deeply invested in their role - truly radical change would most likely eliminate that role. i'm not sure how different that is on the right.
but then i guess i am diverging from the actual question. maybe a left vs right question would be better suited for what i am getting at.
"they both believe in service and self-sacrfice to things that are far more absurd and ugly than you are"
well said, rs666.